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May 28 Tonight I Sail
Last night I dreamt a dream of life, as I have but once before; I saw the years of happy bliss; I saw the years of woe; Tonight my love,
© 2008 Painting by Caspar David Friedrich May 04 I DreamI dream. Between the mantle of my love and the
armor of my hate, Between the sword of my needs and the
quest of my desires, Between the truth of my knowledge and
my faith in the unknown, Between the sunset of my age and the
memory of my youth, Between the counting of my days and the
immortality of my end, I dream. I dream.
And when I can dream no more, because my days have come to pass, My body will be covered, My love will pass away, My memory will fade with time, My works will be forgotten. And yet, within that quiet cradle,
February 08 100 Word Challenge - Fire
Go here for details and the rules of the Velvet Verbosity 100 Word Challenge. The topic for this round is:
FIRE
Within your colors I can dream And see those things undreamt, You pull me into places new To places I’ve before now went.
Within your heat I feel at home By your warm, yet teasing touch, You protect me with your warm embrace Keeping back the colds’ grey clutch.
Your light reflects within my eyes And you are all that I can now see, Your glow descends down deep within To become at one with me.
So carry me off to distant shores And to times forgotten long, Within my hearth, I watch your dance And hear your sirens song.
December 17 100 Word Challenge - Christmas SpiritThe one really good thing about NabloPoMo, was that I got to meet a lot of new people that I might have never tripped over of my own accord; one of those is Velvet Verbosity who has posted ‘The Velvet Verbosity 100 word challenge – Christmas Spirit’.
I decided to do it on the actual ‘Spirit’ of the season, as it applies to me.
I may be a little late getting started here, but what the heck.
The Promise
Uncommon star that had appeared so very long ago
To herald in a brand new age to make on high, the very low
A promise made within the dawn to those destined to fail
That one day Grace would flow to all, within a babies wail.
The Angels, although mighty, could not themselves convey the word
To hearts that had turned cold and hard, against old prophesies they once heard
But wise men looking to the skies for the sign that they did know
Would guide them to the outstretched hand of God, set in a manger low.
© 2007 November 29 NovemberThe bleak sky darkened, and all about a great melancholy arose, The dark sky fell unto the earth, and became a murder of crows. A curtain black was moving slow; its shroud drew ever near, Its dreary rain consumed all warmth; the land shrank back in fear.
Trees stood empty and unadorned; they’d conceded without a fight, Against the wind that would precede, the soon to come cold winters might. The color that had burst upon the land, and painted rich a canvas bloom, Had bled away into the ground to leave it stark, and grey with gloom.
The damp air had embraced the earth, with a dank smell of decay, It seemed all life had traveled on, never again to come this way. With nothing more that they could claim, once again wing and sky did meet, The murder of crows ascended high, its hunger now replete.
November 16 Bloggers Prayer“Prayer is not asking. It is a longing of the soul. It is daily admission of one's weakness. It is better in prayer to have a heart without words than words without a heart.”
~Mahatma Gandhi
“Prayer… will help strengthen us for the journey ahead.”
~George W. Bush
“When the gods wish to punish us, they answer our prayers.”
~Oscar Wilde
Oh great god of crapapolooza hear my cry
My reservoir of blog ideas has quite run dry,
I sit here now in front of this screen
And wonder what it all could mean.
I’ve still got 15 days more left to daily post
And so far, I’ve given it the very most
Best effort that I could make to insure,
That my duty to NaBloPoMo would so endure.
My fingers are poised and ready to go
Of what I can write, I do not know,
In the past when this came over me
I’d pray to you to make me see.
As you can observe, I’m only half way there
And I’m about ready to pull out all my hair,
Nothing today inspires and therefore words I lack
So please help me from looking like Kojack.
And so I prepare now for this solemn task
To enter your presence and there to bask,
And to give you the respect that you are due,
I bow my head, and start my prayer to you:
Now I sit here at my desk
And I do not mean to be a pest,
Will you help me, and make the guano flow
Because if you don’t, you really blow.
Amen. © 2007 November 06 The Gashlycrumb Tinies (Abridged & Totally Adulterated)As I said yesterday, this is an exercise of writing and not meant to be anything beyond that. The following is the work of illustrator and author Edward Gorey, with the plates containing the illustration and the original one line text that accompanied it. As an exercise, I wanted to expand upon each illustration using the original line as my springboard and making it work, without altering the context of the illustration. Saying that, I realize that I have more than likely changed the author’s original intent on what any particular illustration was showing on exactly how that particular child met their end. To this I say "I don't care, it's my damned exercise". Besides, even though the nature of this original work is supposed to be devilish fun, the more I read it, the more I see a cautionary tale that the author may or may not have intended. And that is how I have treated my additions to it to flow. I see neglectful children & parents and I also see things that happen, just because it happened with nothing that could have been done about it. I hope that I have kept the original spirit of the project alive (Cha-Ching!). You will either like it or hate it and that is your choice, but again, do not read anything into beyond that. I love my kids, I love all kids and hate to see anything happen to them. I take devilish fun in this original story (and my additions too). I hope you do too. If not;
Too bad. Because she ran wonton with nary a care, Her mother did warn that she should settle down And now naughty Amy will rest in the ground.
When off he did wander from the groups watchful stares, With sweet cakes in hand, he blissfully set out in fun And found brand new friends that he could not out run.
After a long drawn out illness she got after fun reckless play, She spurned mothers’ advice to put on coat, gloves and hat Too late realizing her wrong; I guess that is just that.
When they rounded the curb on a cold winter’s day, He would not sit down as his father demanded It would be a week before they found where he landed.
Placed for him on the table, within such easy reach Too late did his parents, to themselves have to admit That they should have considered removing the pit.
She found on her leg and announced with a screech, But her attention drawn elsewhere, made her totally forget Attention to detail she wouldn’t live to regret.
Where he recklessly decided to follow after a bug, The movers in the meantime, came by and rolled up the mat Carefully pounding down that middle that they found was too fat.
Who wanted to give him a special thug’s hug, ‘Be Wary of Strangers’ his parents often chided If only their words he would have faithfully abided.
Who was far too distracted to see that big wake, She was too busy gazing at her waters reflection When the wave scooped her up and away from detection.
When he was looking for juice that his thirst could partake, He sucked down the liquid and then fell to the floor And so thirsty James, would be thirsty no more.
Because fathers diligence had became far too relaxed, For the tool shed was open this dark dismal day Cowboys and Indians the children did play.
When he over heard mother state ‘I’m so mad I could spit tacks’, What a wonderful thing he thought, to be able to do And so a great scheme in his mind did bubble and brew.
On a day at the beach which had started in glee, Her parent’s attention was drawn elsewhere nigh So they didn’t notice when Maud was waving good-bye.
There seemed nothing that could help keep his spirits a buoy, Nothing held interest and he was always quite board And so the great nothing was his final reward.
When she wanted to play but could not find her ball, So she settled for something she found left unguarded And she now plays the role of the dearly departed.
After she entered the door and went down the hall, Where much to her humor the last thing she’d see Was the tumbling tangle of a grown up melee.
When chasing a butterfly across the dark brooding shire, Not paying attention to his step was a gamble And only the butterfly emerged from the bramble.
Proving that getting to close to the flames can be dire, How many times did her parents try to warn her away Too late does she see that the flames too, like to play.
Driving her poor parents quite out of their wits, Screaming and yelling for things all through the day She asphyxiated herself for not getting her way.
As like into the fan when the shit truly hits, He brought out his fireworks, he had hidden with care But when he jiggled the package, he went out with a flare.
That was meant to capture nothing more than the rain, Her parents had always thought about covering over that hole Just in case their dear daughter near it decided to stroll.
Despite that for it’s approached he did watchfully strain, If only he had thought to look in the other direction He could have easily made its arrivals detection.
That she chose to cross despite her older sibling’s advice, ‘I know what I’m doing’ she said without reserve And now for the winter she’ll be perfectly preserved.
He kept his room filthy and vermin it did entice, ‘Keep your room clean’ his mother constantly said ‘Oh go away mother, I’d rather be dead’
When the pillar was struck by a strong evenings wind Time worn and weakened, it cried out to please be removed But it was aesthetically handsome, and it’s keeping his parents approved.
From the bottle she stole, she thought with a grin, She loved the room spinning and so she continued to pour Z is For Zillah; Not anymore.
The End June 07 Dante & MeThere shall be eternal summer in the grateful heart.
~Celia Thaxter
The summer night is like a perfection of thought. ~Wallace Stevens
In summer, the song sings itself. ~William Carlos Williams
I HATE SUMMER.
I hate the longer days as they steal away the night,
I hate the shore bound traffic which impedes my homebound flight,
I hate the grueling humidity whose close bound friend is heat,
I hate that I must protect myself, bound in clothing head to feet.
I hate it when I sweat for no other reason than just standing still,
I hate it when the slightest movement seems like climbing a great hill,
I hate it at the amusement parks where you stand in line all day,
I hate it going anywhere, as everything seems so far away.
I hate not sleeping because it’s too hot, even with the windows open,
I hate not sleeping because of the noisy air conditioners commotion,
I hate the squeal mosquitoes make and their bites that just forever itch,
I hate that heat makes me lethargic, grumble, whine, and bitch, bitch, bitch.
But
I love that twilight moment when the fireflies take flight,
I love the pre dawn hour when the birds herald in the light,
I love the gentle morning breeze that announces a new day,
I love the dew upon the grass, which sparkles just before it fades away.
I love the smell of fresh cut grass and its feel beneath my feet,
I love the fragrant flowers breath that makes the air around it sweet,
I love the bees that go from bloom to bloom all throughout the day,
I love the way the cicadas song crescendos, and then slowly dies away.
I love it when the clouds grow black and the winds begin to blow,
I love it when the coming storm, collects the sky more as it grows,
I love to hear the thunder off in the distance rolling near,
I love it when the skies alight and the clouds begin to tear.
I love to sit upon the beach and watch waves crash upon the shore,
I love to hear the seagulls screech compete against the ocean’s roar,
I love to look beyond the oceans curve far off and try to see,
I love to wonder of those beyond it, who may be looking back at me.
I love it when at last it comes nigh to the closing of the day,
I love it when both sun and moon, for a brief time come out to play,
I love that fleeting moment when the sun cries out ‘good night’,
I love it when at last, the moon begins its sovereign sweeping flight.
I love it at this reflective time, when I sit outside alone,
And think about those summers past, narrated by crickets drone,
And just like all those fireflies once placed into a jar,
The time will come to let them go, to blend in with the stars.
“Oh, summer; that you can make me suffer and yet I love you so”.
~Mark Alexander Oliver
© 2007 April 21 A River Runs Through ItThe trouble with weather forecasting is that it's right too often for us to ignore it and wrong too often for us to rely on it.
~Patrick Young
Weather is a great metaphor for life - sometimes it's good, sometimes it's bad, and there's nothing much you can do about it but carry an umbrella.
~Pepper Giardino
Weather forecast for tonight: dark.
~George Carlin
A True Story*
A quiet Sunday or so I thought; a rainy afternoon,
A time in which I could relax, but would learn I spoke to soon.
For just like back in Bible times when doth the Lord did call,
And Godly Noah built the ark so that not all life would fall.
It started out as most rains do; a soft and gentle kiss,
With nothing to reveal within, that something was amiss.
But luckily for us today, technology abounds,
And we were warned a head of time, that trouble was coming round.
A great big storm was coming nigh, it covered many states,
It promised floods and whoop ass winds, with rain slow to abate.
The warnings were shouted all the way from Florida to Maine,
It seemed the whole east coast was doomed, we all would feel the pain.
But even with this knowledge known and preparations made,
I thought that it wouldn’t be as bad as Jim Cantore claimed.
For I have been bamboozled before by the Weather Channel’s claims,
That nasty snow or rain would fall; only to have nothing came our way.
So when at last the rains did come, I still did hold out hope,
That I was right and they were wrong and that we all would cope.
And so I set about my day to work upon a task,
And not give any thought at all to Armageddon’s blast.
The rain at first was steady and drummed along in time,
With what I had been working on; they almost worked in rhyme.
Ignorance is blissful and I was as blissful as they come,
To what was going on outside; all of nature on the run.
And then as if an alarm clock, had woke me from a dream,
I noticed that that gentle rain was now a forceful teem.
I wandered to my bedroom window just to have a look,
To see if the water had broke its bounds from my uneasy brook.
The water had more than breached the bank; it was halfway up my yard,
There floating in its liquid grip, were branches I had yet to discard.
I really had planned to deal with these; it was number twelve on my list to do,
But now the brook would do the job, I knew that I was screwed.
I rushed into the basement deep and battened down the hatches,
To make sure things were off the ground and to gather candles and extra matches.
I ran back upstairs to tell the wife of all that I could see,
But all I found was a brief note from her, which had been left for me.
“I couldn’t wait for you to see what I’ve been telling you for days,
So I’ve packed the kids into the car to take them far away,
To my mom’s house where they’ll be secure, so do the best you can,
I love you dear, so please be safe, you stupid, stupid, man”.
Back downstairs I ran to check and see if there was more,
Of anything that I could do to hold back furies storm.
And just when I was satisfied that everything had been done,
The water started pouring in and left me no where to run.
It came in through the windows; it welled up from the pump,
It swelled around my ankles and just kept rising up.
And when it reached up to my waist, I thought that this was it,
That I would loss the house and all; “OH GOD MY LIFE IS SHIT!”
I stood there in the water and watched in misery,
As many things did now float by as if swept out to sea,
And perched upon a scrap of wood that floated right on by
There was a mouse that had set sail; he let his middle finger fly.
But just like that, the waters ceased to flow into my quarters,
The brook it seemed reclaimed its right to control the troubled waters.
And as I stood there cold and wet, regaining my lost cool,
I contemplated what to do with my new indoor swimming pool.
Now being as a man would be, I though for only a brief time,
About how cool it would now be, to stock with fish this pool of mine.
But then those words of wisdom inside my head like a recording ran,
“You stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid man”.
And so with that decided and without further ado,
I grabbed my nearby floating pales and began the great to-do.
I must have made a thousand trips back up and down those steps,
With five gallon buckets in each hand to reclaim my watery depths.
And so twenty hours later and well into the next day,
Between the buckets, wet vac and pump, the remaining water went away.
I relit the furnace pilot and stoked up the water heater,
The washer/dryer was ok as were the gas and electric meter.
Tired, wet and hungry, I wanted nothing more than a hot shower,
To help warm away my inner cold and melt away my dourer.
But I would have to wait sometime before the water fully heated,
So I went outside into the day to see what mess would I now be greeted.
Because the water only got as far as midway around my house,
Fallen branches seemed to be the only damage that I could count.
So at least my front yard and to the street, seemed clear of great distress,
I turned around to look and see out back, to survey all the rest.
No sooner had I turned around and only a few steps taken,
The power line upon the pole; its grasp was now forsaken.
It fell right down upon the ground where I was just a moment standing,
And burnt my fence straight to the ground; my neighbors car it was now demanding.
“It was a tremendous roaring mass of flames”, to my wife I later noted,
The black smoke reached far into the sky and all the tires exploded.
The fire department could only watch as there was nothing they could do,
The power line was still alive and more damage could ensue.
After about an hour, the power company finally came,
And killed the life out of the line and of the fire, then was done the same.
The burned out wreckage of the car was sadly towed away,
And at my curb a burned out crater was all that now remained.
Way too over tired and sitting on my deck,
I reasoned through the weekend that became a tragic wreak.
Once again I realized that if I had listened to my wife,
More than half the problems that had came, would never have been given life.
Later that same evening after I had showered, slept and eaten,
My wife came home to see how bad her tragic husband had been beaten.
She scarcely looked about the house to see what damage she could spy,
Thent put here arms around my neck and looked into my eyes.
“Even though I told you so and you just chose not to listen,
I spent the night without you near; your heartbeat I was missing.
And despite the fact I knew you were wrong; I know you do the best you can,
I Love you so and am glad you’re safe, my stupid, stupid man.”
* This past weekend, A Nor’easter past very slowly along the east coast of U.S. and made havoc large and small. I label this as a true story, but it is one that is spread across 3 separate times that we have been flooded out by such storms; 1996, 1999 and just now (where fortunately this time it was very minor). It is a story that I have wanted to tell before and with this past weekend’s activity, I thought that it was time.
© 2007
February 09 The Vow“Hope is the thing with feathers that perches in the soul,
And sings the tune without the words, and never stops at all.” ~Emily Dickenson
“Death--- the last sleep? No, the final awakening.”
~Walter Scott
“Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever.”
~Mahatma Gandhi
What is (very) weird about me #2
As I had previously noted in my Pulitzer Award winning article (Translation: My Wife liked it and gave me a kiss),
‘What Is Weird About Me #6’, I am a Grave Walker. Part of how I catalog entries for the database, is to photograph the headstone and use it later to upload both the photo and the inscription details to an internet database (read the previously mentioned article for full details (you know you want to)).
Every now and then I photograph one that for one reason or another touches me more than any other, and I usually find it is a simple stone with little writing, but big on emotion. As I’ve said before, the stones represent the loss to the living, by the living, so each stone is a tangible, long fixed in time icon of a person’s grief and not just a marker for the departed.
Sometimes stones such as these stir me in such a way that I can’t stop thinking about the person who left this sentiment of grief behind and this thought will grab hold of me sometimes for days unless I do something about it. The way I deal with it is through writing, and when it comes to writing about the dead, it is usually a poem. From their perspective. Of the dead that is.
I’ve never made any secret of the fact that I am weird.
But this is not a fixation on the dead; it is a fixation on life. Everyone of us, with the exception of the Highlander and Fruit Cake, have numbered days in this world and going into these sacred resting places to record and even write about them, helps me to remember just that. We all become too cozy with the ‘here and now’ and often fool ourselves into believing that the inevitable is so far off, that the really important things; healing old or new wounds, extending a helping hand to someone in need, communicating with family and friends or just simply saying ‘I love you’, we think can easily be done ‘tomorrow’. That is, until that certain moment when we find it is too late.
I write from the perspective of the dead because they are the ones to remind us that tomorrow is never a promise.
I simply give them a voice.
The Vow
Be not sad that I am gone
And that our vows now part,
Do not feel you can’t go on
With now an empty heart.
Do not cry with a belief
That now you are alone,
Do not sit in darkened rooms
Within an empty home.
Remember me within your heart
And always hold me dear,
For in that place I cannot die
And will be always near.
For when at last our waiting ends
Forever we shall be,
Embraced within each others arms,
Never parted you, from me.
© 2007 February 05 STUFF YOU CAN'T JUST MAKE UP... Chapter 2"And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years".
~Abraham Lincoln
"Expect nothing, live frugally on surprise".
~Alice Walker
"The only danger is if they send us to that terrible planet of the apes".
~Homer Simpson
My wife told me a story that had been told to her by her sister, which was so Seinfeld-ish in nature that I had to ask my sister in law myself if it were true. She assured me that it was. And so I present to you, this strange and mysterious tale (with all due apologies to Clement Clarke Moore).
WITHOUT A LEG TO STAND ON
T’was a day in October of just this past year
A fine sunny day with the sky bright and clear,
The leaves were all nestled in their branches still green
With only a hint of their true colors sheen.
Allen the father and Connie his wife
Took Scott their first born and Jen, who followed later in life,
To the Super Mega theme park just an hour away
And spend a small fortune to have a fun day.
So following their journey they entered the gate
After being on a line (another hour’s wait),
To stand at the threshold of this theme park Nirvana
“Mom can we get something to eat, we wanna, we wanna!”
So after the eating (which cost fifty bucks more)
And finding the bathrooms (which was no easy chore),
They headed on out to hit their first ride
But as usual they would find no luck on their side.
Because Scott is a thinker and careful to weigh
Any danger from any ride that may come his way,
So wouldn’t you know it that the first ride they hit,
Would cause him to ponder and so he did sit.
For you see it was not just your regular ride
Not the kind that the kiddies could ever abide,
It was the newest and biggest and fastest at hand
And none but the bravest would it now demand.
It loomed great before him, a menacing site
By its very nature a cold hearted fright,
Its great looping motion and bone chilling sweeps
With legs dangling wildly from its open air seats
The Angel of Death was it’s true given name
With promises of terror of thrills and of pain,
The biggest and baddest roller coaster around
Where truly great danger must surely abound.
So Scott found himself now all worried with fear
If he went on this ride that true danger be near,
So he sat on a bench that also bordered a lake
For he knew that he had a decision to make.
Always so careful to calculate risk
No matter the venue, no matter place
His family knew better than to try to berate
So they went on without him and he, to their fate.
He studied the framework, calculated the curves
Read into the screams from overhead he overheard,
Ever careful to measure every aspect of danger
If he were to climb onto this body re-arranger.
He watched and he watched and he watched the great ride
To see if there was really some true terror to spy,
And yet no matter how much he thought about going
He just could not get past the un-reconciled unknowing.
And just when he thought perhaps he would change his mind
There came to him a message of the life changing kind,
From somewhere above and slightly stage right
Came an answer that was of an unusual sight.
It wasn’t a bird and it wasn’t a plane
And it sure as hell wasn’t jolly Santa and sleigh,
But what was it that to his eyes should appear,
But a leg that had fallen from off somebody’s rear.
It rocketed at him at such a great rate
That he screamed like a girl and ducked not a moment too late,
For it zoomed over head and just missing its mark,
To land in the lake, by the ride, in the park.
He couldn’t believe it, he was actually right,
That EVIL contraption tried to kill him this night,
And as he stood there a shaking, a crowd started to form,
To see the leg floating there, by just a few feet or more.
In the meantime for mother and father and daughter
The ride was now over and they started to un-board her,
They remarked how it was truly so thrilling and fun
But now it was time to go get their son.
As they exited the ride what strange sight should they see
But a man with one leg that ended at the knee,
He was sitting quite calmly but somewhat perturbed
That his artificial leg flew off when they rounded the curve.
When they got to the spot where they last left their son
They saw that a work crew had found the leg on the run,
They were fishing it out of the lake that did hold it
And Scott filled them in on the epic that unfolded.
“So now you see Scott”, they started to say,
“That the true danger was not on the ride, but the staying away”,
“And if you had joined us, then you too would now see,
That to enjoy your life fully, you must set your fears free”.
He pondered a moment at what they had stated,
For it was true that his fears could be too overrated,
So then he announced to his family and said;
“The next time you want to go out and have fun, I’ll just stay in my bed”.
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